Preparing for the fall

I tell myself I'm over it, but I'm not over it. I don't even know if I want to be over it. And quite honestly, it gives me jitters to think about the aftermath, trying to hold on to hope, when there is nothing to float it on. Yes I have been there before and having been there is precisely the reason why I dread it so much.

But, it'll be okay, it will be fine. It is going to teach me lessons I'm unaware of and make me a stronger person. One day when I look back, I'd smile about this and be thankful for what it has done to me.

As for now, it will be terrifying, but I can strive to survive better this time than I did it previously and move towards being immune to it.

Turn, turn, turn

To everything, turn, turn, turn
There is a season (turn, turn, turn)

A time to kill, a time to heal
A time to laugh, a time to weep

A time to build up,a time to break down
A time to dance, a time to mourn

A time to love, a time to hate
A time for peace, I swear its not too late

©

Symbolizing the end..

Ross: Yeah, but this can't be it (the end), I mean ...
Rachel: Then how come it is ?

© The F.R.I.E.N.D.S people

Sadness...

Sadness, is what is required to appreciate happiness, to be thankful of all the things that we take for granted. They could all be just as elusive as love it self. Is there any way or should there be anyway that there is no sadness? Would happiness mean the same ?

I think sometimes may be sadness makes you want to hold on to happiness even when it isn' t evidently there ? Some sadness, could be productive, to look back, to grieve on things unattained but expected, un-fulfilled but wished upon. But for how long. After a point, it becomes diminishing returns. Instead of learning from it and moving on, if you're stuck, its not a good place to be holding on to. Even a positive thing could be looked upon with distrust, suspect and foul intent, when it isn't quite so.

So, where is the place for sadness, where does it end and how much of it is required to grow as a person ? Are people in love ever sad? Should they be sad ? Is there such a thing as being sad and happy at the same time? Or knowing that sadness is time for retrospect and well being is right around the corner ? All I know from feeling it is that prolonged exposure to it will cause long term damage and will obstruct paths to eternal happiness (if such a thing exists).

Why is there more ooomph in a sad song than there is in a happy love song ?
Why are remorse and regret stronger emotions than being happy, being content ?