Preparing for the fall

I tell myself I'm over it, but I'm not over it. I don't even know if I want to be over it. And quite honestly, it gives me jitters to think about the aftermath, trying to hold on to hope, when there is nothing to float it on. Yes I have been there before and having been there is precisely the reason why I dread it so much.

But, it'll be okay, it will be fine. It is going to teach me lessons I'm unaware of and make me a stronger person. One day when I look back, I'd smile about this and be thankful for what it has done to me.

As for now, it will be terrifying, but I can strive to survive better this time than I did it previously and move towards being immune to it.